Stand Still and listen to the gentle breeze, enjoy the smell of the fresh cut grass, notice when the flowers bloom, leaves start to turn, and the air turns crisp.
Stand Still and look your husband/wife in the eyes and say more than just I love you. Say, "I adore you." Say, "I'd move mountains for you." Say it so he/she believes it.
Stand Still and let your children run circles around you
Stand Still and enjoy the smile of your grandparents
Stand Still and take in every moment
Stand Still and believe that God is in every moment. Take the time to really feel Him.
Way too often we are busy with the hustle and bustle of life...get here, go there, do this, do that....the list goes on and on and on and on...
I have learned the hard way that the ONLY way to get "it" to get the "balance" we all are so desperatly running around trying to find, is to Stand Still and seize every moment to tell, no, to SHOW your loved ones how much you love them. To show your children what a good person is. To Be the best mommy, wife, daughter, friend, sister....just STOP and Stand Still, because Time waits for no one.
I will miss you, my children will miss you, our mother misses you, your husband misses you, our father misses you, our brother misses you, and your SON misses you.
Life has forever changed, "normal" is different.
I vow to Stand Still and not miss anyone anymore...I will teach my children about you, I will remind your son about you, I will love your future grandchildren like my own. I am a pitful replacement, but you would do it for me...so rise to the occasion, I will...
I love you
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Miracles
It has been a while since I have written on this blog, but please just know that I only blog when something happens that SCREAMS, "GOD DID THIS!"
Some may know that almost five years ago I had a miscarriage. It was a set of twins, I was heart broken. To make a long story short, I now have Gavin. He was conceived about a month after the miscarriage. During the ordeal, I prayed a simple prayer, "God please don't use me and this miscarriage because someone close to us will go though this too. God, I don't know if I am strong enough to handle that."
Well the Lord doesn't answer every prayer, he did use me, but he also vindicated my twins...how? Sit right there and I'll tell you.
Two close friends of mine had multiple miscarriages. One of the women was of super strong faith, and began to question her faith...she turnned to me, and I had to respond. You see, when I miscarried, Matt said this to me, "Faith is being able to stand when you don't understand." He was my rock and I learned so much from him. I knew that God had directed him and I now had to help my dear friend. You see, once you lose a baby, you feel for each women that also loses one. But with this friend, I felt the sting over and over, and it was painful. I could only imagine her hurt and dissappointment.
Well, after three miscarriages and heartbreakes, she is now pregnant with not one baby but two! That is right, she is having twins. I am so elated for her and her husband, and feel so close to these little babes already. Vindicated! My little ones are vindicated through her children. I know it sounds strange, but i feel a connection to her and these babies.
God is good, and has a reason for all our heartache and pain, remembering He is there and has a purpose is a wonderful thing.
You see, my friend was able to remain very faithful through this journey. I didn't say she didn't get mad, but she has always been able to give the glory to God. We should all learn a lesson from her.
Please keep this woman and her family in your prayers...she is only about 6 weeks along, so it will be a long and winding road.
Thanks be to God!
Some may know that almost five years ago I had a miscarriage. It was a set of twins, I was heart broken. To make a long story short, I now have Gavin. He was conceived about a month after the miscarriage. During the ordeal, I prayed a simple prayer, "God please don't use me and this miscarriage because someone close to us will go though this too. God, I don't know if I am strong enough to handle that."
Well the Lord doesn't answer every prayer, he did use me, but he also vindicated my twins...how? Sit right there and I'll tell you.
Two close friends of mine had multiple miscarriages. One of the women was of super strong faith, and began to question her faith...she turnned to me, and I had to respond. You see, when I miscarried, Matt said this to me, "Faith is being able to stand when you don't understand." He was my rock and I learned so much from him. I knew that God had directed him and I now had to help my dear friend. You see, once you lose a baby, you feel for each women that also loses one. But with this friend, I felt the sting over and over, and it was painful. I could only imagine her hurt and dissappointment.
Well, after three miscarriages and heartbreakes, she is now pregnant with not one baby but two! That is right, she is having twins. I am so elated for her and her husband, and feel so close to these little babes already. Vindicated! My little ones are vindicated through her children. I know it sounds strange, but i feel a connection to her and these babies.
God is good, and has a reason for all our heartache and pain, remembering He is there and has a purpose is a wonderful thing.
You see, my friend was able to remain very faithful through this journey. I didn't say she didn't get mad, but she has always been able to give the glory to God. We should all learn a lesson from her.
Please keep this woman and her family in your prayers...she is only about 6 weeks along, so it will be a long and winding road.
Thanks be to God!
Friday, January 7, 2011
Just One, Please
"Just one please"
I love to say those words to a hostess at a restaurant. I don't mind eating alone, actually today it was quite a surreal experience. (However, today I was with Emmett, but I am not sure a 7 week old counts for much company in a busy restaurant).
I went to cracker barrel for lunch today, by myself, that's right just one, just me. I am not sure how many of you have ever taken yourself on a "date" but you should give it a try. It is the only time I am able to enjoy HOT food and not worry about who has to potty, if everything is cut up and pray that no one spills their drink. Now, it is nice to go on a date with my husband, but not having to have a converstaion and just being able to observe everything around me is amazing. Today was no exception. I honestly believe that God wanted me to see people the way He sees them, the way He made them...glorious and in his image.
As I gazed out the window, just past my infant sons profile, I saw an extremely elderly couple crossing the snow covered parking lot. She was in better "condition" than he was and so she was assisting him accross the snow. They NEVER stopped smiling. She was so tiny, short in height maybe 5 foot (that is giving her about 3 inches too much I think) and her husband was well ove 6 foot. So you can imagine what they looked like with her helping him. Then out of the blue a young man offered his help and the three of them walked arm in arm accross the snow with huge smiles on their faces. They chatted and smiled the entire time. It was so pleasant to see.
My ice tea came to the table and as I reached for the sweetner (I prefer sweet n low) I heard a gentleman next to me talking to his friend of several years. They were so candid, talking about their grandchildren and great grandchildren...talking about Christmas and the past Holiday. Then I heard this man say something that made me giggle and gaze at him in complete awe. He said, "So the other day on Facebook...." I didn't hear much past the part about Facebook....REALLY you are at least 80 and you are networking on Facebook! God is so wonderful. I just couldn't hardly believe it...wow.
Not only were converstations intersting, but I really believe that God wanted me to SEE everyone the way he sees them, the way he made them. I saw a nurse on break from work eating by herself...and when looking at her it was a sense of calm that came over me. She was a good nurse, one that cared about her patients. As a matter of fact it was written all over her face, her emotions played out like a movie in her eyes. She was kind and thoughtful. Then there was the middle aged couple that sat right infront of me. They both took notice of Emmett and smiled quietly. No words were exchanged, yet she met my eyes and a love poured out from her. I could see the depths of her love and feel her motherly instincts. He had his back to me but, would make an effort to look at Emmett on occasion. ( Emmett never woke up for this outing, so he wasn't drawing any attention to us). However, this gentleman was so considerate, he made sure not to bump into Emmett and pulled chairs out for his wife, when she stood to go to the ladies room so did he.
my senses seemed so intense. each murmmer, i heard as plain as day. the fire burned crisply in the stone hearth. outside the snow was fresh and soft. The environment inside was almost unlike anything I have ever experienced. As I looked at the individuals seated near me, I found my self wondering what they were like as children, as infants, what their mothers looked like, what their stories were, what their joys and heart breaks were....
So, I challenge each of you to take yourself on a date and just simply enjoy being around God's greatest creation...US. We are so unique and yet so much the same.
I love to say those words to a hostess at a restaurant. I don't mind eating alone, actually today it was quite a surreal experience. (However, today I was with Emmett, but I am not sure a 7 week old counts for much company in a busy restaurant).
I went to cracker barrel for lunch today, by myself, that's right just one, just me. I am not sure how many of you have ever taken yourself on a "date" but you should give it a try. It is the only time I am able to enjoy HOT food and not worry about who has to potty, if everything is cut up and pray that no one spills their drink. Now, it is nice to go on a date with my husband, but not having to have a converstaion and just being able to observe everything around me is amazing. Today was no exception. I honestly believe that God wanted me to see people the way He sees them, the way He made them...glorious and in his image.
As I gazed out the window, just past my infant sons profile, I saw an extremely elderly couple crossing the snow covered parking lot. She was in better "condition" than he was and so she was assisting him accross the snow. They NEVER stopped smiling. She was so tiny, short in height maybe 5 foot (that is giving her about 3 inches too much I think) and her husband was well ove 6 foot. So you can imagine what they looked like with her helping him. Then out of the blue a young man offered his help and the three of them walked arm in arm accross the snow with huge smiles on their faces. They chatted and smiled the entire time. It was so pleasant to see.
My ice tea came to the table and as I reached for the sweetner (I prefer sweet n low) I heard a gentleman next to me talking to his friend of several years. They were so candid, talking about their grandchildren and great grandchildren...talking about Christmas and the past Holiday. Then I heard this man say something that made me giggle and gaze at him in complete awe. He said, "So the other day on Facebook...." I didn't hear much past the part about Facebook....REALLY you are at least 80 and you are networking on Facebook! God is so wonderful. I just couldn't hardly believe it...wow.
Not only were converstations intersting, but I really believe that God wanted me to SEE everyone the way he sees them, the way he made them. I saw a nurse on break from work eating by herself...and when looking at her it was a sense of calm that came over me. She was a good nurse, one that cared about her patients. As a matter of fact it was written all over her face, her emotions played out like a movie in her eyes. She was kind and thoughtful. Then there was the middle aged couple that sat right infront of me. They both took notice of Emmett and smiled quietly. No words were exchanged, yet she met my eyes and a love poured out from her. I could see the depths of her love and feel her motherly instincts. He had his back to me but, would make an effort to look at Emmett on occasion. ( Emmett never woke up for this outing, so he wasn't drawing any attention to us). However, this gentleman was so considerate, he made sure not to bump into Emmett and pulled chairs out for his wife, when she stood to go to the ladies room so did he.
my senses seemed so intense. each murmmer, i heard as plain as day. the fire burned crisply in the stone hearth. outside the snow was fresh and soft. The environment inside was almost unlike anything I have ever experienced. As I looked at the individuals seated near me, I found my self wondering what they were like as children, as infants, what their mothers looked like, what their stories were, what their joys and heart breaks were....
So, I challenge each of you to take yourself on a date and just simply enjoy being around God's greatest creation...US. We are so unique and yet so much the same.
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